It started when I woke up.
Ever have one of those days when you wake up with such enthusiasm that it can not HELP but be a great day?
Well, that was the way it started. I met the day with exuberance. Surely the day would be fabulous. I had been through a lot of challenges and frustrations, and well, I really needed a good day.
I left the bed to see my rare pet miracle fish. I had raised many of them from babies and they not only were beautiful but expensive and some not replaceable easily. My optimistic visit quickly went south when I saw that my precious fish school that I worked so hard to put together was being wiped out by a severely contagious virulent disease. I had seen it before. You have a few days at most until your entire school is wiped out. OMG. What was I going to do? Last time a decade ago, this happened and I never did learn what caused it. I had watched with gut wrenching helplessness as I saw my precious fish drop off one by one rapidly with nothing helping them.
I saw with panic that I had entered the same realm. It was all my fault. I purchased two fish to replace an old one that passed and one of them was bullying the other, so in pity to save his life, I put him in the tank without proper time to quarantine. Now I was about to lose my entire large school of fish including him.
I spent several days in anguish searching frantically for a solution. SOMETHING had to save these guys. Last time it happened, I did the same thing and never did find out how to save them.
One by one my precious fish who were full of personality were dying instantly- not even manifesting symptoms- just dying. Just like before.
As I reached the point of screaming at God and asking for a miracle, I was met by another stress. My dad’s health was failing. It was so hard to hear of how he was deteriorating.
With hardly any days in my house to do the cleaning I needed to do due to my husband not having any work, I was reaching the breaking point. I finally got a day to myself and then as I was making progress cleaning my house, I tripped, my big toe caught and almost wrenched right out of my foot. I nearly passed out from the pain.
I went back to research what to do for sprain/possible broken toe and put together a quick makeshift cream to help it heal fast. The severity of the injury, however was not good.
I was feeling sorry for myself and decided to sign into one of my live online chat areas for solace, only to be made aware that I was completely blocked. The only person on the site that could see me was me. I was completely invisible to everyone else.
I reached the boiling point and after several other things happened that day that I won’t bore you with, I was starting to wonder if I would ever get through this endless really bad day.
Then as I prayed to God and asked for help (something I am not always confident in due to events I won’t go into here). Suddenly, the pieces fell into place. I found an elusive article that explained what the situation was with my fish. I was right. It was known to wipe out entire schools in a day or so. However, it took only one combination that really battled it successfully. It just so happened that I had been given a huge jar of one of the medicines a year before. I did not know what it was for, but I got it anyway.
I also happened to have the other thing you mixed in with it.
I immediately put the medicine in the tank,, as I was about to lose six more precious fish.
Then I realized I also had a certain combination of essential oils and arnica that I could use on my foot. I immediately began to do that and found a toe brace I “happened” to have in my house. I was able to use that for my foot to protect the very painful toe.
Things were not getting worse with my father and the other things in the household did not seem quite as bad.
I had read a book which was sent to me about a magical fictional character that helps people evaluate and discard the baggage they carry around with them daily. The choice is theirs to keep carrying it or discard it and give it up. I learned through that book that many people take too much time to focus on what is wrong and do not focus on what is right.
I took a look at my bad day. What REALLY happened?
1. I was given a chance to test out a very expensive medication I “happened” to get a year before I knew I would need it.
2. I learned how to treat a severe strain naturally and had a toe brace given to me WAY before I knew I needed it.
3. I learned how to be patient and stand strong through things going wrong when there is nothing I can do about it.
Sounds to me like God provided for me WAY before I even knew I needed it. I let go of the site that I could not get on to. I went back one last time figuring I could be blocked for life, only to find out that I suddenly was not blocked anymore. I even had THAT restored.
I learned we have really bad days and often get angry at what is wrong, but if we take another look and focus on what goes right, even when it is hard to see the end of our trials, it is much easier to get through it.
Have you ever had times like this when all seemed lost, but in retrospect it really turned out well in some ways? Let’s talk about it.
Maybe you are having one of those days right now. Sometimes sounding off about it helps too.
Gramma Vivian
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